I used to blame people when things were going wrong with my life. There was always someone to blame—even if it was absurd. I just needed to blame someone. Just like when I had arthritis at 25.
For me, it doesn’t come naturally to think about myself first. By default, I’m thinking about what would please other people, although I know it should be the other way around. If I don’t pay enough attention, I lose myself in the process, and I feel frustrated and sad.
When you have all the time in the world, what do you do?
I used to travel running after monuments to see, museums to visit, must-eat restaurants, … My expectations were so high that once I got to experience that stuff, I wouldn’t even feel satisfied. I would feel like “meh”. And let’s be honest, most of what I was doing was just to brag about it back home.
At 25, you think you’ve figured all out.
I like to observe Ellie – how persistent and determined she is by trying to reach stuff that she’s not supposed to play with. She knows what she wants, and she knows exactly how to get it (although her arms and legs are not well coordinated yet ^^).
In a couple of weeks it’s gonna be my birthday. I’ll be 30 years old.
Something I’m still guilty of is to overthink stuff.
I have one dream that I haven’t fulfilled yet. That dream is to live abroad.
Self-awareness is about…